Firstly insomnia is driving me barmy. I was up at 3am eating toast – and if I could have got a bag of chips I would have done. I got some sleeping tablets from the GP last week and I took one over the weekend….I still woke up during the night and I was inches away from a panic attack when I was out.
So I’ve knocked the sleeping tablets on the head. I’ve also tried lavender oil, sleep balm (which worked one night and now isn’t working), Dormeasan, Valerian, various ‘sleepy’ herbal teas and Piriton antihistamine tablets – which so far are the best.
I’m getting about one six-hour sleep a week, the other nights I’m lucky to get 3 or 4. The last full nights sleep I had was at Ange’s Cottage…maybe I need to go away more often 😉
There are so many negatives to the insomnia, I’m back to eating shite (again) so my waistline is disappearing. I’m finding it hard to function normally, although to be honest I’ve forgotten what normal is. I want to become a hermit and just shut myself away from everything.
I’m sure you are all sick of my negative writing so I’m thinking it’s time to start another blog and leave this one for the positive things ie: events, photography, stories etc. If I do start a new blog it’ll be anonymous so I can write what I want to write. The majority of my blog readers are fantastic but there are the few exceptions. The people who think they can say whatever they like. I’m not in the best place at the moment so the things that are said really do hurt. It’s amazing how with all the lovely comments it’s the negative ones that buzz around my head.
I’ve also decided I’m kind of becoming a busy fool again. Running around, championing others and forgetting about myself. If I’m not going to look after me no one else is. So I need to re-think a few things and decided what direction I’m going in. As much as I used to love the photography it’s not bringing me the joy that it once did and everyone out there is now a landscape photographer. I’m really enjoying the writing side though and these days when people contact me it’s usually about writing not photography.
I was going to bring out a Sligo 2018 calendar because I’d been asked to do one. If I’m honest for the couple of euro I make after printing costs it’s not really worth it. This year is worse, I struggled to get orders for ten and if I don’t make twenty sales it’s not going to be viable. Who said the recession is over?? Anyway if you’d like to order a calendar you can do so here.
I promise I’ll stop with the negative posts for the time being…..I’ve got so many other ideas that I’d like to pursue so I’m going to try a few other topics. Although I get a lot more readers when I’m in my negative moods! Thanks for sticking with me and allowing me to spout from the heart.