Wave after wave

It’s been a stressful week. I thought last week was bad enough but this one topped it. It’s helped me learn a lot about myself though and as I end the week I’m stronger than I ever thought I was.

The depression and anxiety are still there. They come and go in waves. Sometimes I’m swimming happily and other times I feel like I’m drowning. My biggest problem was that on the bad days I was trying to fight the waves, to swim against the tide. This week I’ve discovered I have to go with them, that trying to resist just results in more stress.

I’ve also discovered that I have to learn to trust myself. At times I feel like I’m being pushed and pulled in various directions which is quite difficult to deal with. I’m also quite indecisive at the moment and but that’s OK. I am making progress in my own way.

This week I faced a fear. If you’d have mentioned it to me last week you would have got a very different point of view from me. I didn’t even know I was strong enough to deal with this particular situation….but I did it….and for probably the first time in my life I’m proud of myself.

No matter what happens from here on in I know that I can trust myself to do the right thing. As always I’m so grateful for the support from my family, friends and readers of the blog. If you are going through a similar situation I wish you strength and hope. You might just surprise yourself by how brave you are.

About magnumlady

Photographer, blogger, hooked on social media. Based in Sligo, Ireland. Passionate about Ireland and always looking for the next adventure.

7 Responses

  1. Ally

    You’ve made important discoveries and if there’s something good that depression can bring us is self-knowledge. It is the good part.

    You’ve made your progress. You’re a brave and strong woman who has many reasons why to be proud of yourself. To name some: friendly, fun, smart, talented, creative…

    I wish you more and more progress, better and better days. xox

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