Something happened this week that made me feel very stupid and embarrassed. I wasn’t going to write about it, but I can’t erase it from my head, and unless I put it out there it’s going to keep haunting me.
I had arranged to go to a place to feature it on my podcast and blog. I turned up and thought there was an atmosphere. I thought maybe people were nervous. I also wasn’t expecting the people that were there. To try to settle people I started over sharing – why do I always do that?
To cut a long story short, some of the people in the room didn’t know anything about me or what I was there for. One of the people went off to speak to someone, and the podcast wasn’t allowed to go ahead, because they don’t want anything on social media.
I felt so incredibly stupid, and I will never forget the look of the person who told me it was a no. I felt like I was the lowest of the low and not fit to even be in the same room as them.
It’s not the fault of the person who invited me along, and I don’t have any issue with them at all. I do have an issue with what happened though. It was a complete waste of my time, and I now feel like I never want to do a podcast again, or approach people to write a blog post.
I’m really annoyed, because I’ve worked so hard on my confidence, and I know I still have anxiety issues, and I feel like this has knocked me right back. I felt like I crawled out of that room and wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.
The biggest shame of all is that the place that I went to is a great idea, and something that I would have firmly recommended. I hope I can come back from this.
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