Sorry for the negative post. I was doing really well but today I found out that someone I really respected unfriended me on Facebook. I know that sounds really trivial but I feel like I’ve let this person down.
I was meant to be doing a collaboration with them but I lost my nerve, the anxiety and panic attacks started and I couldn’t face it. I feel ashamed and useless once again.
So now I feel sad again, I wished people understood mental health issues and how it can affect people. One minute I’m ticking along nicely and the next I’m hurt. I need to learn not to be so sensitive but now I just feel like crying.
I’ve lost so many people this year, part of me feels like there isn’t much point in trying to make friends anymore. I had such a positive day yesterday and now I feel like I’m back to square one.
Nothing I do will ever be good enough. I’m not good enough. Sorry again for the whinge but that’s just how it is this evening.