If you have been reading the blog regularly you’ll know I have been having a bit of a rough time with anxiety and depression. I got a phonecall yesterday that might make things better.
Back when I first saw Siobhan O’Farrell Nutriation at the beginning of the year she was concerned about how low in certain vitamins my diet was. I am the fussiest eater in the world, I don’t eat eggs and I rarely eat meat. I have a diet of mainly fruit, veg, porridge and cheese – although since Lucy’s home I’m now eating better.
To cut a long story short Siobhan has studied about the link between depression and lacking in B12. She advised me to go and have a blood test which I did back in March, but even though I asked them to test my B vitamin level it wasn’t done.
So for all this time I’ve been a pain in the backside to live with. Everything has been such an effort, it’s like being stuck in some kind of brain fog or walking through treacle. Even getting out of bed was difficult. I’m not just tired all the time I’m exhausted. I’m anxious, paranoid, forgetful, I have no attention span at all. To be honest I thought I was going mad.
I’ve been forward and back to the GP. I’ve had my antidepressants changed and increased on several occasions, I’m on sleeping tablets and I still feel bloody miserable. Siobhan told me to go back and get that blood test done again which I did on Tuesday – and yes I know I should have gone back before but I didn’t have the energy.
Well yesterday I got a phone call from the doctor. The low-level for B12 in the normal range is 190 – mine is 153 – and guess what? Lacking in B12 has a strong link to depression! So for the first time in a long time I’m actually excited to think I might actually start to feel a bit better, I almost cried when I got that phonecall, to know that I’m not actually going mad after all. I will be starting B12 injections next week. The mad thing is Lucy is deficient in B12 so I’d kind of thought that might be a clue for the health service as these things can be hereditary.
I’m hoping I might start to feel at least a bit better and hopefully calmer. Hopefully sooner rather than later which will be just as well because I got a letter from the HSE yesterday stating that the waiting time to see a psychologist in Sligo is between 9 – 12 months!! I do wonder about this country, especially as there is such a high rate of suicide here. There really doesn’t seem to be much help at all for Mental Health in a country that’s crying out for it. That’s probably a rant for another day and who knows maybe when I get strength it might be something I can try to tackle.
So my dear blog friends, thank you for sticking with me during all my dark posts. Thank you for all the support and advice and sorry for those posts which you found hard to read. I will keep you updated as to what happens from here.