So there I was today minding my own business, going about life, thinking I was doing OK….well as OK as I could be in my present state of mind….it was too good to be true. I should have known it.
My ‘routine’ in my head got a bit scuppered and it really threw me. I started to panic, pulled myself together enough to get to the doctors and lost control. I ended up having an awful panic attack. I was a shaking, sobbing, uncontrollable mess. I couldn’t breathe and to be honest I thought I was going to die. I’m so grateful for the lovely surgery nurse who calmed me down and who was just so kind to me and also to the GP. They were both so helpful to me and I really appreciate them being there for me.
I’m now on new medication so I’m really hoping it kicks in – or that I manage to sort out whatever this stuff going on in my head is all about. I’m just so fed up with it all at the moment. I thought I had a handle of things and today proved to me that I really don’t. So sadly no words of wisdom from me today but if you are out there and you are suffering there is help out there and it is OK to say you aren’t OK.