March seems to be flying, or is that just me? There have been a lot of different events that I’ve been to and I was thinking back to how I was this time last year. I used to turn up to things, take one look at everyone and leave again. I started to push myself to stay for five minutes, ten minutes and so on. Each minute was an accomplishment.
They were the same kind of events that I was at over the past week. This time I didn’t have to bargain with myself to stay. I found myself relaxed and smiling at people. Now that might not sound like a big deal but after the anxiety issues it’s huge. Not only was I relaxed I was even joining in conversations! With strangers!
When things didn’t start on time, which is quite a regular occurrence here in Ireland, I just went for a coffee on my own and waited for them to begin. I didn’t rush back to the car and head off home.
I can’t begin to tell you have liberating it was! My nerves were nowhere to be seen and I enjoyed all the events I went to. In fact I’m planning a couple of day trips and looking forward to them. I’m not overthinking things as I would have done before.
It’s amazing how far I’ve come in such a short space of time and most importantly how relaxed I feel – without any medication! So if you are having a tough old time of things hang on in there. Things can and will get better.