This old anxiety is a strange thing. I thought I was doing OK, I thought I was doing really well in fact, until last night.
I was going to a dinner and instead of arriving early as I would normally do I was a bit later. So when I walked into the room there were three tables laid out, two were full and one had a few people sitting at it. I shuffled in and sat down feeling very awkward.
Everyone was chatting or going up and introducing themselves and I was stuck to the chair. I didn’t have the confidence to walk up to someone and introduce myself and I didn’t see anyone I knew. I just sat there like a potato.
After about ten minutes I decided I would go home. It would be a fairly miserable dinner if I sat on my own. This, of course, is no fault of the organisers or anyone else, this is my problem.
I was just about to leave when a lady walked in who I knew from Facebook. I didn’t recognise her but she knew me. I’ve never been so pleased to see someone in my life! We sat together and two other people came up and introduced themselves and sat with us.
In the end it was a really lovely evening, the food was fantastic as was the company. So I’m delighted I stayed. A big reminder for me that I may think I’m doing well but it’s not always going to be easy.