It feels like the 786th edition of Sunday Thoughts. So here we go, I’m just going to launch straight in.
We had a massive storm over the last couple of days and part of me wonders if it’s because things are ‘getting back to normal’. I’ll have to watch myself or I’ll turn into a conspiracy theory believer!
I went off to a local town to do a bit of shopping yesterday. I got out of the car, walked up the street and right past the shop. The old anxiety started bubbling up and I couldn’t face it. It took me right back to the old days, when I would drive to a place, take one look at the people and drive home again. I could have pushed myself to go in but I didn’t want to risk the possibility of a panic attack. I’ve come so far that I’m not going back there again.
When I think more about it there was a trigger on the way there that could have kick started the anxiety. I’m telling myself that’s what it is anyway. Although not going out is probably messing with my head to. I love being home but I think I’m probably loving it too much, if you know what I mean. I’m not the most sociable person in the world anyway so this situation isn’t helping.
It’s an important lesson to me though, to know that the anxiety is still looming. All was good when I got home and today is another day.