I spent Winter Solstice in a contemplative mood, it was a day of looking back and reflecting. A day spent mending bridges instead of burning them. A day to let the past go.
I’ve realised over the last few months that dwelling on the past doesn’t make me feel good. In fact it drags me down. Things may have happened but those days have gone and it’s time for me to let go and move on. The only person I hurt by hanging on to the past is me.
It’s great because by doing this I feel like I’m in control and certainly this Christmas feels like I’m a lot more settled. It’s the first year I can remember where I haven’t had to calculate what I’m spending going around the shops. Not that I’ve been extravagant but it’s great to know I have enough money for groceries and bills – for once! It only took me 50 years to get here!
I slept really well last night and as I looked at the sunrise over Hawks Rock this morning and listened to the birds singing I felt very grateful to be where I am in this moment in time.