Jellybeans for breakfast

It’s been a challenging couple of days and as I’ve found so often in the past there’s always something reassuring that happens to tell me I’m going in the right direction.

Today was one of those light-bulb moments. I went along to ‘Homecoming’ with Rachel Webb at the North Leitrim Women’s Centre today. It was a lovely morning of mindfulness and art….and you’ll know my history with mindfulness previously – when I had a panic attack in a mindfulness class (you can read about it here.) I’m so grateful that today was nothing like that. Rachel was gentle and so understanding and I really enjoyed the mindfulness part – there’s hope for me yet!

Before we moved on to the art section of the morning Rachel read out a play called Jellybeans for Breakfast. It was about taking yourself back to childhood to find your muse and ignite creativity. Part of the play said “Sometimes, to move forward, you must return to the past.”  This couldn’t have been said at a better time. It gave me the courage I needed to do something I felt I had to do.

It was an exhausting thing but once again I realise that I don’t give myself enough praise for how brave I really am. It also reminds me that nothing is ever as bad as you build it up to be in your head. This evening I’m relieved and relaxed and quite proud of myself.