It’s taken me quite a while to get over the Romanian trip. I was feeling quite out of sorts over the last few days but thankfully I’m feeling good again today. I realise now that tiredness combined with insomnia isn’t good for my mental health at all.
I had a couple of things to do over the weekend and I was really quite anxious, to the point that I didn’t want to leave the house at all. I gave myself a bit of a push and on both occasions I was really pleased I went out.
The first event was a local market and I ended up having a lovely morning and enjoyed taking photos. The second event was a birthday party so I squeezed myself into my jumpsuit and off I went. The jumpsuit meant I couldn’t sit down comfortably and couldn’t go to the loo because I’d never have got it back on again! It was a great night though, some lovely people there and the DJ played ACDC so I was even up dancing!
I’d been anxious to find a new job since the Knock airport one finished. I did find a job but it was just over an hour a week with a lot to try to fit in. It was impossible actually to do all that was expected of me in that short amount of time. The old me wouldn’t have said anything, I’d have gone over my time to do the work and probably would have ended up tired and bitter. I said that it wasn’t feasible to do everything and I’m really proud of myself for speaking up. It’s such a big achievement for me to stand up for myself and move on.
So another door closes but that’s OK. I’m not going to rush into something that I feel isn’t right for me or isn’t possible to do.
I’ve also decided I won’t do a trip as complex as the Romanian one again. While I enjoyed parts of it I’m not able for that amount of travelling. It’d be grand if after the flight I’d arrived at my destination but I can’t do all the hours of public transport. I’ve realised I don’t have the stamina that I used to have.
So that’s a few more things that I’ve discovered about myself 🙂