Decisions and Directions

I think the biggest thing that I’ve found during the pandemic is that like so many others I hit the pause button. Life stopped in so many ways and it made me stop and think about where I was going in my life and what I was doing.

I’m always an over-thinker, which has its blessings and curses, but it does make me question things that I do and most importantly think about if I actually enjoy them or if they are making me stressed out.

Occasionally pre-Covid I used to take photos at events and do some photography documentary work. It always used to take me a while to settle into it. I remember driving to places and being stressed, I used to feel a warmth on my back – which I’m convinced was my dad giving me a little nudge. He was a photographer and would get unbelievably stressed before jobs – especially if it was a wedding.

To cut a long story short, I’ve decided that I won’t be taking any more photography jobs. Photography is a great way for me to clear my head and focus on just taking pics (pun intended). I remember a photographer telling me when you start taking photos as a job it kills the passion you have for it. He was right. My passion isn’t quite dead yet, it just needs resuscitating.