I’m wide awake and my head is telling me I’m useless so I’m going to write.
2020 has been very busy and I’m tired. I also have a toothache which isn’t helping and Rocket-dog needs surgery which I’m worried silly about.
I know if I write it’ll get it out of my head and I might sleep.
I should really get up and do something useful like work or finish painting the Christmas decorations which need to be posted on Thursday.
My head is telling me that nobody likes me, probably true. I seem to be ending the year with less friends than ever. I seem to be someone that people come to with problems and when they are OK they leave again. That’s fine and I’m delighted for them but sometimes a message asking if I’m OK would be lovely. I look at the huge number of ‘friends’ I have on Facebook and it’s just so fake.
I’m wondering if the level 5 lockdown will be lifted next week. It’s not going to make much difference to me I don’t think although I would like to go for a walk on a beach. I miss the sea.
I really should try to get some sleep.