Welcome to another Sunday Thoughts post. I hope you are all doing OK. It’s hard to think we are now in July, looking at the weather you wouldn’t know it.
Phase 3 of the Covid plan began at the end of June, and before that I’d already seen more people around. Sligo town has got busier, with more cars anyway. It’s easier to go shopping because more shops are open, so I don’t find big crowds or queues to get into the supermarket, as I would have done before. If you are in town at 9am on a weekday there is no one in shops like Penneys, TK Maxx or Next, so if you are planning a shopping trip, I’d suggest an early morning one.
My emotions are still all over the place. I feel like I’m on a boat, sometimes I’m just gliding along and other times the water gets choppy and I find I’m clinging on for dear life. It’s the choppy times I struggle with, I’ve noticed the familiar chest pain creeping back, it was so bad last week I could visualise my heart contracting. I know those are the times where I’d be close to having a panic attack but because I know what to expect I have a word with myself and talk myself into becoming calmer – which is way easier said than done.
I’ve met two friends last week. One for coffee and one for a beach walk. I was nervous about it. What if I’d forgotten how to speak to people? What if I had nothing to say? What would it be like going back into a coffee shop? It’s funny what goes through your head. I was worrying for nothing. The friends are both wonderful, very easy going and it was fantastic to see them again – and they both looked so well! Glowing in fact! And there was me in my beached whale state. I hoped I might emerge from lockdown like a butterfly emerges from a cocoon, no such luck, I’m more like the caterpillar.
The coffee shop was really well set up; perspex between tables, contact details taken at the door, table service. I noticed when other customers left the staff disinfected the tables. I found the noise quite difficult, with music and people talking, I’ve always found that quite distracting but I suppose I’ve been 4 months not going into a cafe that it will take me a while to get used to it again. It felt like a big achievement though.
I’ve no plans to eat out anywhere or go into a pub. I’d be too worried, I’m seeing numbers creeping up again and I know in places like Westport there are a huge amount of tourists. Personally I’d rather people stayed in their own countries this year. I know it’s not good for the economy but I don’t think it’s fair to risk the health of others, whatever about your own health.
How are you all doing? Are any of you travelling? What’s it like where you live?