Later today I take Jono to his appointment in Dublin. I should be asleep but that would be the sensible option. Instead I'm wide awake listening to the house creaking, Puggly snoring and feeling the knots in my shoulders. This appointment has been a long time coming. I'm wondering if the doctor will spend longer... Continue Reading →

I went to a book launch and reading today in King House, Boyle. If I'm being honest, and you know me and honesty, I don't usually like readings. I usually have the attention span of a child with ADHD. This reading was different. Louise G Cole has a way with words. Not just writing them... Continue Reading →

A couple of days ago Andy showed me a photo of Lodz in Poland, which is pronounced Woodge. I'd never heard of it before but it looked amazing so after a quick search I sort of accidentally booked a flight there. It's not until the end of September so I have plenty of time to... Continue Reading →

A curtain of blonde hair. Not one of them out of place and never a bad hair day. A colourful wardrobe where pink Wellington boots went perfectly with a leopard skin dress and a red hat. An endless smile, big blue eyes, an envied figure. She listened but never told secrets. In a time of... Continue Reading →

Why don't you speak? Too scared. Easier to say nothing. Eyes down watching an invisible spek of dirt on the carpet. Chest hurting from held breaths. Here but not really here. Children should be seen and not heard.

This photo was taken last year. I look happy and well but it's amazing how a smile hides the pain. I wasn't in a good place when this was taken. I was depressed and very anxious, suffering from panic attacks and struggling to fix myself. Physically I was in good shape, as in I was... Continue Reading →